You probably noticed, I stopped writing to the website in recent months. 7 months ago actually. When i failed to possess a baby, life did alter immensely and a weird almost poetic way, you can say indeed, a brand new life was created. That life was mine.
In retrospect, it may be said I stopped writing because whereas during the past I had formed felt my writing allowed me to figure myself out, completely then begun to keep me back too. 7 months ago I stopped wished to ‘figure everything out’, I stopped attempting to justify me to myself - I just wished to do without needing to consider doing everything I did so. As wrong because may sound for some, immediate and even shortly delayed reflection on ones decisions or acts and even behavior sometimes is really a life lived with great caution. I must admit that initially around me I needed feeling inhibited. That inhibition by itself is really a selfish act, perhaps- but there will come a particular amount of time in certain people’s lives if you find an unexplainable have to try to be in support of they are able to determine what What i'm saying is.
The nearly 4 years I spent in Ny was that amount of inhibition for me - therefore dear and sacred was this time around and experience therefore personal that, in most cases, Some would like to share it with anyone in any way.
Now, 7 months later from after i blogged last and a month ago, I moved to Boston. I moved back, a fresh person and also this new person would like to share.